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Create A Day

One creative project every day for a year

As my last post said, I was working on a really epic recording and was going to spend 2 or 3 days on it. Well… as seems to be my luck all the time, I had really terrible technical difficulties… I was going to write out and sing all the parts to Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen. If you watch that video in the link, you can tell that it has a bajillion parts, as well as multiple time signature changes. Well, I spent several hours putting all the vocal parts into Garage Band (I had to convert all the time signatures to where they would fit into the bars… ugh…) and then I decided I would just go ahead and record the vocals because I realized if I wanted to do the guitar parts and stuff, it was going to take a ridiculous amount of time… BUT THEN Garage Band kept crashing and deleted every recording I tried to do… So after pitching a fit and wanting to throw my computer off my balcony, I decided to just record all the parts separately while listening to to the song on headphones. So I did that, but then every time I tried to export the song to iTunes, it would process it, but not show up!! (This has happened before on another song and I never did figure out what I should do…) So, even more frustrated, I found a Karaoke mp3 of it, downloaded it, and then recorded myself just singing Freddie Mercury’s part…. And then it wouldn’t export a to mp3 again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGG!!!! So, pretty much I worked for probably about 10 hours on what was supposed to be this epic arrangement of Bohemian Rhapsody, and I have abso-freaking-lutely nothing to post of it!! I’m so fed up with this whole project (not the 365 project… I still love it! Just this day’s project) and it’s almost 1 am and I have to work at 8… I’m calling it quits. Maybe when I’m calmer I can try and find some way to do it, but not today. I might do an extra project to make up for this crap, but we’ll see. At the moment, if I ever hear Bohemian Rhapsody again I could strangle somebody…

Wow… I sound like a really angry person. I’m just so ticked that I spent so long on this and talked it up so much yesterday and have nothing to show for it… I guess that this post has become sort of like a journal entry for me, which is creative in it’s own way, so I’m going to tag it with writing, too. And while I’m journaling/ranting, let me just get something off my chest.

As most of you know, I work at a Benjamin Moore store here in Knoxville part time. About a month ago I approached my boss about becoming full time. I really actually like my job, and I think that I have so much more I could bring to the table with my design skills and other things, and I feel like I could really help the store’s business. I also pretty much have to work full time next year in order to have enough money to start paying student loans, so if I could stay where I already have a job and work and get paid more, why not? So, during this meeting, my boss basically told me that he had been pretty much just thinking of me as a “warm body” because he assumed that I was leaving as soon as I graduated, which was my original plan. He also pointed out some issues he’d been having with me, which was hard, but they were all valid points and things I needed to work on. Long story short, I gave me until the end of the month to push and show him that I really have the drive and capability to work full time and be and official designer. So, the past several weeks, I have been pushing extra hard, going non-stop, jumping up as soon as a customer comes in, learning new things (as much as possible), and I feel like I really have done all that I possibly can. So now, I’m just waiting on my boss. I’ve tried all this week to schedule a new meeting time with him so we can figure it out, but he’s always on the phone or out on job sites or whatever, so I just haven’t had the chance yet. I’m also scared shitless. I hate to use foul language on this blog, but that’s the only way I can think to put it. I am so scared that I’m not going to get the job and then I don’t know what I’ll do. I’m scared, but I also have to know asap, because even if I do get the job, I need to discuss with my boss how to schedule my 2 classes in the fall. And if I don’t get the job, I’ve got to find another full time job immediately!! So, yeah, I’m really freaking scared. This is the first time I’ve ever done anything like this at a job, so it’s hard! But, hopefully I will find out soon enough what’s going on so I can move on.

I think this whole job situation is another reason why I am so mad at my plans for Queen greatness failing. This 365 project has been such a great way for me to escape all my stress and worries from work or school or family, and it’s really hard to see a project fail, because it reminds me of all my other failures outside of the blog world. So, sorry to bring all my drama here, but today they seem to really overlap. Hopefully everything will be better once I figure this job thing out!

Thanks for letting me vent a bit… I feel better :) Tomorrow I’m going to try and get a couple of posts in, particularly month 4′s recap video!!

Anna Grace